November 26, 2007

人生必学技巧

小希--一个我最近认识他的布落的朋友.
原先或发现她,好象是在完美的论坛里.
看见她的标签有放上布落网,于是在丫头好奇心的驱使下,
便游览了她的布落.
发现她的布落都蛮有趣的.
这只一篇我从小希的布落CO来的...
觉得很有意思...
带来和你们分享...
文章如下:


在開始我的長篇大論之前,我先分享一篇文章。

不懂女人心的例子
女人(試探地問):「你想睡覺了喔?」
男人:「對啊。今天上班好累。」
女人(故作體貼狀):「好吧,不吵你了。快去睡吧!」
男人:「喔,好。那你也早點睡。」啪。男人掛下電話。五分鐘後,電話鈴響。
被吵醒的男人:「喂!?」
女人:「......」
男人:「誰啊?」
女人(一肚子委屈狀):「你是不是對我感到不耐煩了?」
男人:「啊?什麼?」(摸不著腦袋)
女人:「......」
男人:「怎麼了啊?」
女人:「你是不是覺得我很煩?」
男人:「很煩??為什麼?」
女人:「......」
男人:「到底怎麼了啊?你不說我怎知道?」
女人:「人家講到一半,你就打呵欠,又自己先跑去睡覺......
男人:「可...可是,是你叫我先去睡的啊?」
女人:「你都說要睡了,不然我還能怎麼樣?」
男人:「唉!如果你要我聽你講話,就直接說嘛。幹麼叫我去睡,結果自己又在那邊生悶氣?」女人:「我那有生悶氣?」
男人:「這樣還說沒在生氣?好啦好啦,下次我不睡了嘛。可以了吧?」
女人:「那有什麼意義?我要你自己心甘情願,想聽我說話才聽,而不是因為怕我生氣!」
結局:男人又多花半小時安撫對方。
實際就寢時間:十一點四十分。
加上先前爭執的緣故,睡覺時情緒有點悶。
明天搞不好女人還會冷飯重炒一次。

深諳女人心的例子
女人正在興頭上,男人打了呵欠。
女人(試探地問):「你想睡覺了喔?」
男人(語氣雖然疲累,但表示出興致):「嗯。有一點。今天上班比較累。不過你還沒說完啊,繼續說。我在聽。」
女人(得到安撫):「喔,不過你累了。不然你先去睡好了。」(還是有試探意味。千萬不能中計,馬上掛下電話。)
男人:「今天沒午休,的確比較累一點。不然明天早一點打給你,我們再聊久一點,好不好?」(解釋原因,並且提出補償。)
女人:「喔,好吧。快去睡。你一定很累了。」(已經願意放你去睡覺了。不過打鐵趁熱,別停下來。)
男人:「那你打算幾點睡?」
女人:「不知道,再過一下子吧。」
男人:「好啊。不過不要太晚睡,對身體不好。我會心疼耶。」
女人(嬌嗔狀):「好啦。」男人:「我最愛妳了。」(眼皮垮下了也要記得說,功虧一簣可就劃不來了。)
女人:「我也愛你。好好休息喔。」(終於心花朵朵開了)
男人:「嗯。」啪。女人掛下電話。
結局:十一點十分,完美的句點。
男人順利就寢。睡得香又甜。隔天說不定還有morning call

結論1:女人要的是感覺。很多時候,不能用理性的腦袋去思考她們的邏輯。
結論2:多花幾句唇舌,講幾句貼心話,可以讓你省下超過半小時的寶貴時間。
結論3:遇到這種情況,要讓女人先掛電話。以免後患無窮。
結論4:如果你的女人和上述例子一樣,請別指責她「無理取鬧」。她要的其實很簡單。



這篇文章主要是諷刺女人的心態,而這種心態對男人而言,
就是莫名其妙,無理取鬧。
第一個例子,是一個不懂得技巧性說話的男人。
第二個例子,則是一個會運用詞句說話的男人。
其實往另一個角度看,何止女人呢?
當你跟老闆說話的時候,你一定是用技巧性的方式去表達。
當你跟還未追到手的女孩聊天的時候,你也是用技巧性的方式去溝通。
不管你多累,多忙,多不耐煩,也會很禮貌性的跟她說話。
為何當女孩身份變成了你的女朋友,
你就再也不想用技巧性的方式與她溝通呢?
為何一定要用刺耳的詞語在你的話裏面?

其實說話的技巧,跟你細不細心有關。
假如你是一個細心的人,
你絕對會站在對方的角度,
在乎對方的感受,
以不傷害對方的為先例而說話。

打個比方:

你在很忙很忙的時候,偏偏有人不斷地找你。
你會怎表示?
有些人破口大罵說:你沒眼睛看我再忙嗎?
有些人會直說:你很吵,很煩涅!
細心的人會說:我先忙一下哦!等等再找你。

不同的方式,表達一樣的意思。
為何不選擇理性的那個呢?

因為你不知道對方是什麼事情找你啊!

如果她今天特地作了一個點心給你,
想立刻讓你嚐嚐,故作神秘先不讓你知道。
你用了第一個方式對她說話,你覺得她會怎樣呢?

如果她今天踫到了讓她非常非常不開心的事情,
你用了第二個方式跟她說話,
換作對方是你,你又會怎樣呢?

如果以上兩者都用技巧性的方式,
說不定吃完點心還會給你一個親吻,
然後你可以期待下一次的點心!

說不定她知道你在忙了之後,
還會給你加油打氣呢?

話,非要用令人難堪的詞語嗎?
希望大家都會技巧性的說話~!

@ORIGINAL COPIED FROM :小C


大家看完了有什么感想?
我看完后的第一个感觉是:诶,对欸...

你们不觉得技巧很重要吗?
一个人说话如果没技巧不但会让别人觉得自己没礼貌,
还会让自己身边的人因为他的言语而受伤.

本人觉得说话,尤其在要说别人的不是,或表达自己的感觉时,需要特别小心.
换而言之,话在还未出口前不许思考:这话能说吗?该怎么说好?

不加思考的话,最好不要让他从你嘴里出来.
因为说了以后不单人家会伤心,或不妥你.
甚至你自己都可能为你自己的话,而懊恼不已.

说话是一门学问.
更是一门不可不学的学问.
经过思考的言语,不但能让你人见人爱,还能车见车载.
但是,也要记得哦~
现在这个时代,没一分钟世界都在变,都在UPGRADE.
所以,不要以为自己说话技巧不错就好.
要记得跟上这个变化万千的时代UPGRADE.
一层不变,可是后患无穷的哦~~




来自: 目前努力在UPGRADE
丫头



November 25, 2007

自己一个人

一个人的旅行

心情好or心情坏
有什么好假装
反正天若真的塌下来
我自己扛

天气好or天气坏
有什么好紧张
反正下一秒钟的我
开始开始流浪

我要一个人去东京铁塔看夜景
我要一个人去威尼斯看电影
我要一个人去阳明山上看海芋 拍偶像剧

我要一个人去纽越纯粹看雪景
我要一个人去巴黎喝咖啡写信
我要一个人的旅行
一个人辈出透透气


By : Penny 戴佩妮


我自己很喜欢的一首歌...
喜欢它的歌词表达到很贴切...
喜欢呆佩妮柔而刚的歌声...
喜欢它的音乐带出了淡淡的自由...
喜欢我听着它时会很开心的幻想自己在那些旅游景点里...
喜欢它给我有思诗情画意的感觉....
喜欢它带出来的自由感....

很舒服的歌...
让人忍不住想抛开所有,
自己一个人穿着T-SHIRT 牛仔裤,
带着背包,护照...
没有目标的到处去...
欣赏所有美丽的地方,
享受所有奢侈到来却又简单的活动.

像坐在法国巴黎街边的露天咖啡馆,
点一杯浓浓的ESPRESSO,
嘬一口咖啡,闭上眼用力伸呼吸,
品尝着异国的空气和咖啡香,
享受着周围宁静的气氛,
看着人们简单而缓慢的步伐,
然后望着前方的夕阳.

又或者,
坐在希臘的白色沙滩上,
天很蓝,海很蓝,
云很白,沙很白,
吹着海风,
迎向淡淡的海盐味,
看着前方手拉着手的爷爷奶奶,
笑着看不远的小孩在互相泼着海水..


很奢侈却平凡的旅行...

一种我想要的自由感....

一个傻傻的愿望...

在努力实行的梦....



来自,


爱幻想,然后努力实现
丫头.


November 24, 2007

无言的结局

很快的..24号过去了,而我为期10个月的课程就这样,莫名其妙的结束了.
原本想说"莫名其妙的完成了",但想想了觉得不妥还是改了.
会用"结束"来形容而不用"完成"的原因是因为我不人为我有"完成".
马马虎虎的10个月,吊儿啷噹的10个月.
除了临考前会稍稍紧张,要不然啊我还真没感觉我有在上着课.
[汗 =.= ll]

之前和班上同学担心害怕焦虑的临考心情通通都不见了.
交上我的会计考卷,把我的桌子收拾干净...
推开那扇滋滋做响的门,抬起脚跨出了课室...
那一刹那,
我自由了...
从中5毕业后边马不停蹄的开始我的会计课程,老实说还真是没毕业的感觉.
现在终于算
小毕业了...

在内心欢呼的同时,焦虑也开始了.
又是一个人生中的小断点结局.
每次到了这种时候我就会开始在想:那我的下一步应该怎么走?
当然这一次也不会例外...
我同样的忐忑不安,同样在想我接下来的路要怎么走.

离开课室的我们,似乎约好似的,象平常一样围在中间的桌子喧寒了起来.
院长经过看见顺口问了个问题:你们有谁还要拿接下去的课程呢?
很自然的我用一个字回答了他的问题:
.

也许很奇怪,先前不是还在忐忑不安吗?
为什么下一刻那么肯定自己的路了?
原因无他,会计根本不是我要的那杯茶.
它只是我家皇后认为适合我们家大公主--我喝的茶.
她认为这杯茶是人人赞不绝口的好茶,
然而他却从来没问我这百茶的胃口适不适合我.

在一开始没有坚决不喝这杯茶的我,再喝了一口发现不想喝时.
我不任为我有资格喊:
我要喝咖啡.
所以在喝了10个月后,我难道告诉他说我喝不下了吗?
拜托,茶才喝了3份之1...
想喝咖啡?
行,喝完茶再说吧...

所以..当人家问我的茶还要喝吗..
我当然得应:
要~~

如果你问我:那你的咖啡呢?
我回告诉你:
我茶都还没啃完,等我啃下去了还有心情喝咖啡再说吧..

哇咧..茶要喝3年啊
(若没意外)
喝完我搞不好讨厌再喝任何东西,要锯扒了,你不给啊?
[奸笑中]

你也许会问,那你他*的忐忑不安P啊?![抱歉]
没办法,自然反应..就是忍不住想来忐忑那个他*的不安一下.
毕竟..毕业 = 失业...

但是...本小姐想失业都难..
正所谓为人师表....唉....
我的假期有学生陪..应该蛮充实的吧..=p

我的假期啊~~~~你快点来到吧...
虽然只有那么一丁丁的4天...
但好过没有吧....



P/S:题目你看了有没有觉得跟我的文字不是很MATCH涅~~那是一首老歌~~
好象是这样唱的~~咳~~咳咳~~无言滴结局~~无言滴结局~~
还看不懂?!笨哦~~~! 就是说..没有结局啦~~还看....[表骂我~]


闷闷的雨季...闷闷的我...
闷闷的心情...闷闷的文字....


来自:今天闷闷の丫头



November 14, 2007

time

Times really run out fast sumtime..
well...my ten month course of LCCI accouting is going to end on tis 24th...
my all course mate and i busy for our final exam and the exam of LCCI now..
stress a lotsa...PIA a lotsa[even nt really PIA..lolz]....

Most of my course mate gived up for the M.A course,and also me.
I din take part in the exam for M.A..coz for me costing is ady a damn hard subject,how i going to handle M.A without my lame costing@@

The exam hvnt take yet..me and my gang of class mate ady planing for our graduate party..omg..nowaday de students..haiz..
haha..we planing to have it at A'Famosa,Melaka. it will be a unforgetable party i think~~

Btw,i also ady planned for my holiday...i ady dated wif my gang of wanmei fren to hv the 2nd gathering at genting on the next coming Dec~~so miss thm~~coz alwaz pou a lotsa~~haha~~

all those fun and great time ady planned..so now i think i really nid to go study now..hah~~ my business statistic exam is going to happen on tis friday~~

so Char,gambeteh~~try my best for myself!!


wish all de best for me~~^^

October 01, 2007

29092007

Happy birthday to u~~Charlene.........
muaks~~~
since..u b'cum 18 dy.....
cant be a kids anymore.....
cant be childdish anymore...
cant cry without good reason anymore.....
like wat i alwaz remind u.....
"u nid to be strong....u nid to be mature"
u nt a kids that can cry like baby...
u nt a kids that can complain and complain..
u nt a kids that can blame on ppl bout ur lose..
everything nid to solve urself.....
everything nid to handle wif good...
coz u r Charlene....
the hope of daddy....
the glad of mummy....
the one for ur family and fren.....
so my dear......
cheer up from today....
from ur 18th birthday~~

September 16, 2007

slping yatou o.O

there was a long time i din renew my blog...
hrmmm....
charlene quite nice now...coz there are yatou wif me...kekeke

sum of my fren wonder....aren't yatou = charlene....
ya...charlene is same as yatou..yatou also charlene...
but for myself..there is different...
coz charlene is a ppl in real life..yatou is a character is wan mei world...
yatou is more brave thn charlene...
yatou jz like a ply gurl in the wan mei world...
yatou was alwaz there run out to protact charlene whn charlene meet sum problem...
jz like whn last month the "idiot"

maybe like wat my fren told me yatou jz my imagine...
ya..sure i noe yatou is jz my imagine..
but is the imagine can help me b'cim brave...can colourful my life...why dont?!
hehe~~try to accept my concept~~

ya~~i changed ady...
i noe and all my fren noe...
after i hurt a lotz in a stupid thing that named "LOVE"
i b'cum plyful..
i b'cum humour..
i b'cum a gurl which can frenly wif guy bt nt love...

here is my recently pic~*


Now, i drunk in a world name wan mei...
inside the world charlene is not charlene...there only gt yatou..
i got a lotz of frenz there...
got a lotz ermmm...puppy lover there...
got a lotz siao gang there~~

my laopo[Tata]..my dear[Kk]....my siao fren[tiger]
my dardar[Xueer]....my cool master[BB]...
and a lotsa......

i really lucky to noe thm...
although nt so long...
although we r all far to each other...
but we r close like a big family..



18th birthday is coming soon


yatou..wat wishes u wan charlene make for u?

July 14, 2007

Busy journey to KL

Well YaTao jz cum bk from Kl...
Go there for two days to accompany Joey for settle her college problem summore shopping and meet sum frenz there...But no time go bk to find my dear Cheong's family...cham>_< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">nid to cum bk for my class so...........haiz...
the 1st day i went to Kajang while meet Ruru for celebrated her birthday wif her...after that i go bk to my brother house which at Sri Petaling~
We go to have our meal at Kimgary...eat too lotz of food...cham...sure fei sei...

Then the nite i go to Nilai Inti wif brother for watched their college idols...
the galz who won the competition really damn Geng!!
summore very damn beautiful....
and there is oso invited the super star YunMeiXin for performance...

the next day,
i woke up earlier in the morning coz nid to called the stupid brother wake up for his class..
cham....damn tired & sleepy after that...

me and joey them take our breakfast++lunch at times square and start ^shopz^
erm...really waste a lotsa of money [T.T]
i bought a beg..a shirt...a mask and sum make-up product....
after shopz,
i accompany Joey to Cheras for her college....
thz for my net fren MingWai who cum to fetch us at LRT station...
and after that i go out wif MingWai to meet my gang of online game's family...
The 1st time we all YamCha tgt...erm...quite nice....
i think it will be perfect if sum of them stop smoking infront us =P

Hmm.....its really a good memory for da journey~
sry ya~~my dear cheong's family coz did tell u all i gt go bk there...

taken in Brother's room

on LRT to Plaza Rakyat b4 bk

da view from my brother's home...nice rite?

ate Mc.D at 2:30a.m. on the way bk form Nilai~fei sei again...

u can see mou? YunMeiXin on the stage..

Daniel....his da one told us bout the competition..

My 8 years fren---HuiXian which oso study at NilaiInti now...


My dear birthday fren---Ruru

YaTao love Strawberry~~~
eat...eat...eat and eat...thats y we two brother and sister fei and fei...

38 4~~taken at TimezSquare de car park...

YaTao on KTM to Kajang

Two 38 de JiMui taken a lotsa on KTM while boring~
OMG~~~fatty YaTao




Anyway~~i'm here thx for my frenz---MingWai...
Thx coz fetch me and my frenz here and there....

Hope can meet u all again after i finish my exam T.T

and we nid to go find LengZai...Tata...and Crystal next time...
if nt Tata will kill me.....cham....


青春

第一章"青春"
"青春是什么?如果可以那我宁愿永远停留在17岁,永远不要长大"

静的日记里第一页写的就是这句话..
我看了后,也开始好奇什么是青春?
也开始想停留在17岁,不要长大.
就象静说的,大人的世界里存在太多谎言.
在示人的脸孔下,
究竟藏着多少他们认为"顾全大局"的谎言?
究竟藏着多少不为人知的一面?
是虚伪?是欺骗?是背叛?还是无奈?
我不懂.
只是如果当个大人真的需要活在谎言里...那我宁可不要.

谎言,
是个可怕的东西.
看似缈小,但它的力量却是你想不到的惊人...
就像是它可以杀人...

"说了一个谎,你就要说更多的谎来圆."
大家都听过这句话吧?
但是,你可知道?
事实上,真正让人害怕的,不是找谎言来圆谎的人.
而是不会再找谎言来圆场的人.
因为当他们谎言被戳破后,他们却都认为自己是对的人.
认为自己这么做是为别人好,很伟大,自己也很委屈.
他们连自己都欺骗.
那我想请问:还有什么是他们不会做的?

静选择停留在17岁的方式是"堕落""放弃""报复"...
到最后的"死亡之密"...
而现实里的你我呢?
当你想拼命的留着某样东西时,你会怎样?
我...不知道...
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
2007/06/29

祝你21岁生日快乐.

谢谢你,对不起...
谢谢你给的温柔,
谢谢你给的回忆,
谢谢你给的快乐,
谢谢你给的悲伤,
谢谢你给的难过,
谢谢你给的激情,
谢谢你给的所有.

对不起我给的悲伤,
对不起我给的烦恼,
对不起我给的食言,
对不起我给的痛苦,
对不起我给的困扰,
对不起我给的跋扈,
对不起我给的所有.

我知道我的承诺,
然而我却选择了在我要实践诺言的时候离开了.
因为我知道我等不到了,
就算你真的改变,也绝对不是为我.

而且,我的心不完整了.
"我决定离开你身边了,记得这一刻我爱你..也请记得下一刻我把保护了5年的爱交还给你了"

就像我说的,
我学习了什么叫"一个人",
学习了怎样不再让自己受伤...

锋,生日快乐.
祝:长大
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
好了...
终于把两件最牵扯我的事都办完了.

也许你会好奇,
还有一件呢?
我会告诉你:
"他和我知道就好了"

我把自己的心清空了,
不再装任何人.
所以,我把另一个在我心上的人,
也一并解决了...

我自由了,
他们也是.
我...不再是我.
因为我有了一套新的处事风格.
就像我告诉她们的.
还早着呢...
何必交心.

心...我藏起来了.
不再交出来.
反正就当当看
"凝结"
可能我会上瘾也说不定.

damn study for mid-year-exam

walao.....1st time i felt i'm really "stupid"...
study 2 days jor..still don'y understan wat i hv been studies~~~
idiot arh...
how to take eaxam 2ml??
wait die liao lar~~~~~~~~~~~~~
NiaoNiao also said she donno...2ml nid go college earlier to study together...
damn arh...
damn exam..
damn book..
damn teacher which did care us can go on wif the course o not~~~~~
i hate it~~~

June 21, 2007

Tha Damn MID-YEAR-EXAM

The note thats i saw at my institut....

Mid Year Exam--[ BS1/2007 ]
25th June--Book Keeping
26th June--Business Statistic
27th June--ABC
28th June--Costing

WALAO~~~why so fast wanna mid-year-exam liao de???
why so fast June liao de??? I don wan.....
I can't make it well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Too many book and assignment that need me to go to do agian and study bk again~~
My schedule full and full jor~~~~~
I can't face the stress on this damn thing~~~
How to study all the chapters???
Which subject should i start xin??
Should i give up sum of the subject like costing??

DAMN arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have no enough time to prepare it at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

June 16, 2007

I wanna to

I wanna be the girl he can goofy around
I wanna be the girl he can tell anything to
I wanna be the girl he scared to lose
I wanna be the girl he can hold hand in public and won't care what anyone says
I wanna be the girl who is always on his mind
I wanna be the girl who he wanna to share some choc dipped strawberries wif
I wanna be the girl who he wan to heat things up wif
I wanna be the girl who can be the only one in his arms
I wanna be the girl who can mede him fell touch
I wanna be the girl who can put the lips on him
Most of all i wanna be the girl he ~*loves*~

I would walk a thousand miles,
just to see him.
I would scream a thousand words,
just so he can hear me.
I would cry a thousand tears,
just so he would noe i care about him.
I would sing a thousand love songs,
just so i can think about him.
I would climb to the top of Mount Everest,
just so he know he was my world.
I would tell him "I LOVE U"
just so he would remember.


HangFok

How to say?
hmm....very good now....
such as a kids suddenly got lotz of ~*sweet*~

Too sweet de thinng alwaz made me feel dizzy..
but...
now de swet jz let me feel~*good*~
as more as the sweet he given to,as more as i wan...

Yao...
ur ben ben here to tell u...
this time i'll hold u wif tight...won't let go agian like b4...
don't worry~
all the thing will be find...

we got a lotz of time for understand each other...
like wat i told u,
when u r be together wif ur ben ben,
u can jz shout out that how much hang fok that u wan from me...
i will be the one who give u as more hang fok as u wan to...
untill u beh tahan....^^

don't worry bout ur passed...
for me...u r the most important..
for the other things....
its ok...we can settle it as good as possible by ourself...
trust me and trust urself k?

To all my lovely frens...
sorry for made u all worried me these few week...
em...i'm fine...
haven't fine like this b4..
although sick now...
although stress wif the exam which coming soon...
but i really feel that i'm fine...
coz beside me now,
got "he"..
sumone who really can made me feel "hang fok"...

o ya~
today Sarjan Tuition centre of Segamat had been held a training camp for the students at The Bukit Hampar Rock garden...
erm...as a teacher at the tuition centre sure i hv the reaspon to join the activities...
summore i have to creat all the game in the camp wif Sin Yee[a nice galz]^^

But i'm
late today....sowie ya~~
coz i awoke lately....haiz....
The most suffer thing for Charlene sure is need to woke up early in the morning...[i'm alwaz sleeping baby what]
7:00a.m. in the morning ler.....wa~~~
exspecially when the nite b4 camp i sleep 4a.m. sumthing....summore b4 sleep drunk alcohol....omg~
its really suffered while not enough sleep....[Dear scold this coz he called to sleep early i didn't hear]

em..for me the camp is quite good lor...
the students can learn more which usually didn't in BOOK...
summore students also will found that "teacher" also can be with a word "cute"^^lolz~

coz today while taking photo my students-KOK WEI shout:
"teacher why u acting cute...geliii ler~~" [=_="]SWT""

wei~~teacher cannot act cute mer??
ur teacher me har...only 18 what...
still in the age "cute" wat~~
my dear also alwaz said me cute ler^^
haha~~shy==

hmm...all the thing good lor..
activities good...sudents good...teachers good^^...
once the bad thing was the weather,its really***
the sun was very damn big while morning till noon...
there is really HOT!
but while all the activities going end...
the sky suddenly bla~~~ rain....
T_T....swt"...

ofcourse all the teacher swt""""""
and whole of my body jz wet and smelly....yeik~~
Ppl jz gt a bit better from sick what....
wan made ppl sick again....[dear,sorry made u worried o..]
so after home i jz run in to toilet for bath and then sleep...
oO...b4 that i gt go to take my madic. coz dear said mz eat b4 sleep...hmm..

today is a quite interest day in the ending of my holiday~*

ok~~nite jor~~
wan go to oi oi jor~~
nitez~~

stupid blogger

Agian my lonely insomnia nite...
Ya...jz like what i said:"shhh...leave ma alone.."

Joey
my 8 years best silly fren who jz bk from KL have a *silly* talk today:
me:"sianz...ler.."
she:"where r u?"
me:"u think ler...sure home wat.."
she:"where is ur bf?"
me:[swt"]"hmm...breke jor"
she:"huh?! what?"
me:"yaya...that day broke jor,he don wan me.."
she:"y?"
me:"b'coz i'm too QI"
she:"swt""
me:"so lar..this call fren wor...never read my blog...how u going to noe my recently?"
she:"sorry lar....me din nou bak chi mar.."
me:"swt""
she:"okok..i go see now."

well....thats the silly talking...
thats is nt any interested...
but made me more lone...
lastnite was the last day the guy named "Humphrey" in Charlene 's life...
oo...no...
maybe should say...
Charlene was death so...

Humphrey
was also lost in Charlene memories from now..
To:"sorry for bother ur life"
To:"i will give bk ur own world to u"
To:"Jz forget that gt a galz which very annoyed,who name Charlene was ran in to ur life"
To:"sorry.."
Ya...still *alwaz Charlene stlye*
Talk like i won't care..
Talk like i'm fine..
Apologize with apologize...

But...i still insomnia after that...
I though i can do it..
I though love sumone should set him free...
I know the one "honey" for "baby"..
won't cum bk anymore...

Maggie asked me after read my msg..
"where u going to run off?"
"run bk KL?"
ya...after i hear tis...
i stok....
coz i also donno where can i run to....

"did i'm the kind of galz which alwaz made ppl who beside me tired?"
"no a"
"then y all the guy who beside me leave me?"
"emm...."
"maybe he is right...i'm a galz which made ppl tired...and alwaz a too stick gal"

winki
was worried...sorry dear....

againz a nite wif alone...
lay on bed...
thinking and thinking...
after cannot TAHAN...

I run in to wash room...
Hide myself into the pool....
the damn cold water made me more awake....

I noe...
He wan me to stand up...
He wan me continue my life wif good...
He wan his baby happy alwaz....
All he done is for my own good...

But...he donno...
his baby lost soul while lost him...

He angry...
I know...
he angry y i'm nt understand him...
he angry y i didn't learn to be strong...
he angry y i didn't try to safe myself...

Sorry,my love....
I've tried to...
tried hardly to understand u as much as i can..
tried hardly to learn as stronger as i can...
tried harldy to safe myself...
but...i'm the loser in handle my own life...
coz i felt....
ya...defeat.......

so..i go far away from u...
i donno when can i forget...
but atlease while i'm trying to...
i won't annoy u.....

this is wat u wan...and i need to learn...

June 07, 2007

原来...天空是这样的...

早上六点三十分....
靠在窗边,大口大口的吸着气...仿佛不这么做就快窒息...
很安静...第一次发现失眠原来不需要在床上翻来伏去...
那只会让自己更辛苦...

静静的站着,看着暗蓝色的天空,听着耳边那鸟儿的叫声...
原来这就是早晨...
耳边传来的信息鸣声告诉着我,隔壁也有个人还没睡...
在默默陪着我...
只是从前那个属于他的心,不再会因为这样而开心...

"还不睡?乖...夜了.."
"嗯,你睡吧..安.."
**又是"乖"...我有点想念"小不乖"

"又怎么了啦?谁欺负你?"
"没..我很好.."
**"他"的欺负,从来不会让我不开心

"那...睡吧...没理由睡不着"
"别管我,安"
**是啊...没理由

看着蒙蒙的天...
有点不自觉好累...压着呀着的...好不舒服...

突然想起二姨丈...
那个总是笑呵呵的好爸爸,好丈夫,好先生....
天国您住得习惯吗?
可有后悔离开了我们...

您的宝贝都很想您...
放心,我不会让人有机会欺负他们..
这是见您最后一面,心里对你的承诺..
虽然我曾经因为周围太多人高估我的能力,
而感到压力与害怕...
虽然有那么一下下我不知如何帮忙...
但我会替您多疼他们...

记得去年底吗?
您告诉我:"很棒哦..这是人家抢不了的东西..加油"
最后一次做你说很棒的事情给你品尝,是多久前了?
好象是两个月前....
好快..时间就这样过了...
到现在,我心里还是有千万个不明白...
路是你选的...
但是你要的吗?

想起那天的现场...胸口还是会不自觉好痛...
我知道..我们都无能为力...

"I know that was stupid..but just let the stupid be"
这是我到如今还记着的...
也是..我开始了解的...
也许就想您的挚爱说的,
希望您选了对的路...

至今没人明白...
没人明白这件事对我带来了什么样的"后遗症"...
我会无时无刻在害怕...
害怕有一次面对"失去"...
突然想知道,
那最后一刻是什么样的感觉...

天亮了...
原来家里也看得见风景...
白白的云..蓝蓝的天..黄澄澄的日出...
把我的房间都染成了...
暗暗的"黄"..

下午两点,吵架了...
也不算...
算我坏了...
开始反抗你...开始埋怨..开始了我的不平衡...
你说,你不知道原来我的心是这样想的...
对不起...我...开始变自我保护的刺猬了...
不再让自己受伤...

我知道你为什么会找我...
也明白这是你的方式..
只是我很累..满满的想的都是另一人...
记得吗?
我说过我喜欢爱人..多过被爱...
所以有受伤了...
两道疤痕在一起..还蛮辣的...
谢谢你的陪伴...

但,这会是最后一次,
我以"你的君"的身份呆在那里...
以后是"颖君"咯....

五年...够了...
一千多个日子...我们都该忘记了...
五年来,
我未曾不乖,未曾反抗,未曾离开...
五年后.我决定放手..
因为"他"...
但现在...我也对自己放手了...
也许"乖"真的不好...
压抑好久,该坏了...

你是唯一知道那件事对我造成多大影响的人...
昨晚,我差点再次受影响...
只是这次,我靠自己平伏...
不再依赖...

五年过去了...
也带走了"宇锋和颖君"....

我不再向当那个人人以为成熟,处事能力好的女生...
我不再想当那个稳重,有主见的女儿...
我不再想"爱"...
我不再当个"天秤座"...
我..开始想疯...

颖君...暂时想"叛逆"了...

I meet death

what is the time now?
who si the one still awoke?
why the one awoke still awoke?
when the one awoke wanna sleep?
where the person can made the one awoke sleeep?
how can made a person forget?
5W1H....that is what a sinchew news reporter needed to understant....
feel funny to Charlene.
a stupid idiont ill silly girl
Insomnia...
a sick which disturb me tis few day.
Love...
a thing that made me wonder.
Tears...
a type of water made me mad myself.
Sad..
a feel made me lost myself.
Dream..
a funny thing made me become funny.
Promises..
a damn spoke that made fate become idiot.
Fate..
a damn thing that made human become stupid.

Jz now i talk wif mummy..i say...
i wan to leave here...
i don wan stay at Jhr anymore..
i wan go far away for study..
i wan throw "Charlene"

Yaw tell me...
he donno how to made me feel better..
i said is ok.i'll be fine.
but i didn't tell him.
i'll be fine is me.
Nt Charlene.
coz Charlene nt going to be fine anymore.
coz Charlene feel tired.
tired untill don wan wake up,don wan smile.don wan the life that made her feel "death"

Mind to tell me where is the place for find "reborn"?
I give up jor.
Give up for all.
I've tried all my best,
pamper all the ppl which beside me good,
done my best for mum & dad,
do what the ppl wan me to,
tried hardly to protact my love,
treated the one for me wif good,
change out my childish,
trying hardly to be strong,
tried to solve all the problems myself......
but although i tried my best on all...
its still lose.

i'm still the loser in life.
a damn loser,a noob.
ya,enough!!
i ady tired to be the Charlene for other.
its all enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its seem like a day for waiting death...
**A loser is shouldn't being here
can i go out for crazy?
can i go out for sum alcohol now?
can i go out for sum smoke now?
i really need its for now.
DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!