Cham~~why all the things happen together?

Yesterday...Dear phone gone~~

B'coz of me....cham~~~although he said is his fault nt mine..but i also feel very"noi gao"...

If i didn't call him fetch then he won't cum out....

If he didn't cum out then he won't ride motorcycle...

If he didn't ride then the phone will nt gone...

Stupid Charlene....see wat u had done....

dear so sad for that....

so u nd gambateh..cannot waste waste the money cincai cincai...

wanna save for buy a phone as a present for him when he 21th birthday k...

Today morning help him go and settle the SIM card although he said he don wan use dy...but the SIM card very important wei~~~all contact inside wei~~~later loss contact wif frenz wei~~~

Very pek chek see dear sad sad...loss the thing he most care to...

So lor....haiz....donno wat can i do...dear sad till play game also no mood dy...

Dear said jun agian FEI jor...mz keep jor...

yalor...really FEI jor...

Dear accompany jogging lar...then jun nt FEi lor...haha...

Muax..x...x...x

Love dear so much....

dear,remember wat we said...

give sumtime to each other for rest our mind...to grow up...

maybe one day we will found that wat we nd is still each other...

maybe one day we found we love on tis way tat we standing on now...

maybe one day we have no changing...

maybe one day we jz have our ownself and without each other..

maybe and ,maybe...

1 month,3 month or more than that i donno...

but we jz can wait...

now we jz can go through our life like normal...

eat eat together...chat chat together..play game together...

without hug hug...without kiss kiss..without shiek shiek...without Mi Mi...

Go through our life like frenz..or maybe wat i told u "Qin Mi" frenz...

to comfirm that wat i nd is u or nt...

to make sure wat u nd is wat...

The words "LOVE" now maybe too far away from us...

We ady wonder that wat is the feel batween us...

So time is the most important thing for us now...

So dear...promise to Jun...

try to think wat u nd...wat 21 years old de Fong nd...

Jun will still here...no matter wat is changing..

maybe after tis period can't be a charecter which named---lover

but can alwayz be the charecter named---Closer

When one day our thinking,our mind and the other are become close...maybe our hearts will meet again..and i'll come back with being a charecter named----Ur One

But by the side...now Jun still Fong's "Lui Yan"...like wat u always said...

ur little maid is here..hehe...pamper u alwaz like the way u pamper me...

~>_<~8:30p.m.~>_<~

Did I really done bad all the time?

U know sumtimes i alwayz think bout tis...
Did i really a person which un-adorable...un-kind...un-friendly...un-cleaver...un-lovely.......
All the thing,the ppl beside me alwaz shown that i'm really a bad galz...
I tried to pamper all the ppl beside me as more as i can...
I tried to done my job as good as i can...
I tried to be a good galz as perfect as i can...

But the ppl beside me shown like i'm still bad...
Even i really tyring hard to change my image..
Even i really tyring hard to pamper them good...
Even i really tyring hard to do what they wish me to...

They still shown me that i'm childish...i'm playful...i'm......
I'm not a playful galz...i jz wanna to be happy and confirm ppl beside me can be happy too...
I'm not un-friendly...i jz don wan to be too talkative or jz wanna ask when i wonder...
I'm not childish...jz wat i think sumtimez is different wif u or wat i think u r nt support...


Life is still un-perfect after i done all that i can...and also after i tried all i can...
Ya...i noe life is normally un-perfect...
Or maybe i change my words..
Life is still bad after i done all that i can...and also after i tried all i can...

IZZIT HARD TO MADE DE LIFE BE GOOD????

I just wanna my life be more interest...be more comfort...
Maybe u will ask: ur life still not enough interest?still not enough comfort?!
Wat i means is not on money...brand...

I means:
I can do wat i think to but not b'coz of sum ppl don like tis don like tat,then i nd change...
I can get more interest activities but not only study,look after shop,help house work...
I can get support form de ppl when i do sumthing i wanted to and maybe u don like...
I can stop argue wif the *one* and go bk to the started for us...
I can stop tried to change myself b'coz of sum ppl don like me...

IZZIT HARD??!!!

No...rite?
but why i can't?

Suddenly feel so tired and fed-up on all of tis...
I try to done all to made Dad and Mum happy...
I try to done all to made *U* feel comfort...
I try to done all to made my frenz feel i'm a friendly glaz...
i try to study hard to shown tat i'm nt only a playful galz...

But suddenly now i feel un-comfortable on all tis...
i donno why...
maybe b'coz of tired...
maybe b'coz i jz wanna shout out...

maybe and maybe....

I can change if i really wanna...
Don wan care to ppl feeling...
Don wan look after ppl face...
Be selfish...

But i can't!!!!

I really care to ppl who beside me...
I scare they will feel uncomfortable to me...
I scare they will sad...
I scare they will feel disappoint to me..


Sorry for complain many on blogging...its jz a moment of feelings...

I know all the thing will not be perfect...so...
can my life have a bit changing??

**No need perfect but at lease be better than now....be a-bit-comfort....**