Did I really done bad all the time?

U know sumtimes i alwayz think bout tis...
Did i really a person which un-adorable...un-kind...un-friendly...un-cleaver...un-lovely.......
All the thing,the ppl beside me alwaz shown that i'm really a bad galz...
I tried to pamper all the ppl beside me as more as i can...
I tried to done my job as good as i can...
I tried to be a good galz as perfect as i can...

But the ppl beside me shown like i'm still bad...
Even i really tyring hard to change my image..
Even i really tyring hard to pamper them good...
Even i really tyring hard to do what they wish me to...

They still shown me that i'm childish...i'm playful...i'm......
I'm not a playful galz...i jz wanna to be happy and confirm ppl beside me can be happy too...
I'm not un-friendly...i jz don wan to be too talkative or jz wanna ask when i wonder...
I'm not childish...jz wat i think sumtimez is different wif u or wat i think u r nt support...


Life is still un-perfect after i done all that i can...and also after i tried all i can...
Ya...i noe life is normally un-perfect...
Or maybe i change my words..
Life is still bad after i done all that i can...and also after i tried all i can...

IZZIT HARD TO MADE DE LIFE BE GOOD????

I just wanna my life be more interest...be more comfort...
Maybe u will ask: ur life still not enough interest?still not enough comfort?!
Wat i means is not on money...brand...

I means:
I can do wat i think to but not b'coz of sum ppl don like tis don like tat,then i nd change...
I can get more interest activities but not only study,look after shop,help house work...
I can get support form de ppl when i do sumthing i wanted to and maybe u don like...
I can stop argue wif the *one* and go bk to the started for us...
I can stop tried to change myself b'coz of sum ppl don like me...

IZZIT HARD??!!!

No...rite?
but why i can't?

Suddenly feel so tired and fed-up on all of tis...
I try to done all to made Dad and Mum happy...
I try to done all to made *U* feel comfort...
I try to done all to made my frenz feel i'm a friendly glaz...
i try to study hard to shown tat i'm nt only a playful galz...

But suddenly now i feel un-comfortable on all tis...
i donno why...
maybe b'coz of tired...
maybe b'coz i jz wanna shout out...

maybe and maybe....

I can change if i really wanna...
Don wan care to ppl feeling...
Don wan look after ppl face...
Be selfish...

But i can't!!!!

I really care to ppl who beside me...
I scare they will feel uncomfortable to me...
I scare they will sad...
I scare they will feel disappoint to me..


Sorry for complain many on blogging...its jz a moment of feelings...

I know all the thing will not be perfect...so...
can my life have a bit changing??

**No need perfect but at lease be better than now....be a-bit-comfort....**