who am i?????

I'm thinking tis question tis few day..........
maybe u will ask for me:"What the hell question izzit?"
but i really think to know it..........
I can say that:i lose myself.........even i also donno why i'll lose myself......
i done all the thing which not my style...i done all de thing i hate...i fall in love with damn to de person i shouldn't love to.............................

What wrong with u Charlene???!!!!!!!
can u wake up!!!!!!

where are me???
the true Charlene!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why i'm in suffering!!!!!!
why don't i give up!!!!!!!!1
i'm really tired.....tired and tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel wanna to run away all of tis.....................

i hv been scared my fren and myself tat day...
i phone to my fren and cry untill cannot stop cannot control......
my fren asked
:"Where is Charlene that i noe?"
:"where is the Charlene which happy?"
:"where is the Charlene who always thinked positif?"

ya.where is me??
who am i now?
is tis myself?
i donno.........................
i just can't find myself........
stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
D-A-M-N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT AN IDIOT!!!!!!!

or can say more correct is
"my soul gone"

i need rest...rest my mind...rest my body....
rest all i can..........
really tired.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................