Burden

Recently mummy keep asked me a same question:
" y dun u go and help ur dad on his business after ur class like last time?"

every time when my dear mummy asked me like tis..
I will escape it wif an a-bit-cin-cai reason or jz ignore it.
Every time after i answered mummy and look in her eyes,
I know mummy was sad and disappointed when i gave her the feedback like tat.

Mummy i apologize for tat...
i noe u alwaz hoped tat i can be the daughter who can really help u in daddy business,
at those homework tat annoyed u alwaz and oso in our family...

Mum..i am willing to do as wat u hope..
And i also alwaz trying my best on it.
I make great efforts on all de thing,

I learn all de thing in shop wif staff.

I asked whn i nt really noe well

I practiced repetition on the way communicate wif customer

I practiced to keep the best smile all the time whn i face to customer even i was emo tat day

I practiced the best manner whn face wif daddy fren and supplier even my emotion was jz bad.

I try to show my mature all the time on daddy business...


Coz i noe that..those will make u and daddy feel proud and be gratified...

I exerting the utmost strength to be a good-daughter-as-guy all the time.
Coz i noe daddy alwaz felt pity in i'm nt a guy!
He alwaz look at me and told me this when he was drunk:
" dear,u r really a good helper for papa although u r the one who most notti in home.But papa sek u most.The only thing made papa felt pity is u r nt a guy."
[well, my dad wasn't a ppl tat old mentality but he jz really hope i was a guy-.-ll dun ask me y coz i oso duno]

so tat i try my best to show tat even i was a gurl but i can do all the thing which guy can.
[yala..i admit maybe nt all the thing but mostly]

but there was some argue btw me and papa recently...
maybe papa jz too angry and impulsion on the time..but it jz hurt me.

[What i wan is not a burden since u r 19 years old!]

Papa,i really trying my best to show u my effort.
Sry tat i done wrong..sry tat i was spendthrifty....
My dissipation make u feel disappointed...
But the words came out frm ur mouth really hurt me...

Tats the reason y i dun really think to go shop anymore..
coz i duno tat did i really can be a good helper in ur business?
or else the truth is Not really?

Maybe papa u were jz felt pain on my half-mature-half kiddish...
b'side i was too narrowness and selfishness..
i jz care wat i thinking but i never try to think for u and mummy...
papa,give ur stupid daughter sum timez..i will use my way to apologize on my fault and i will show u tat ur daughter really can fight well wif guy^_^

I will show u tat i wont and never be ur B-U-R-D-E-N !!


I love u PaPa...
I love u MaMa...
And i was sorry coz my fault...
I swear I will change as well as i can...


YaTou~gambateh~


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