I juz felt my self very useless....very very damn useless...
coz i can't do anything to make my self happy...
how come i can't???!!!
i donno...really donno....
such an idiot!!!!
August 18, 2006
August 16, 2006
Touch
Thx a lots for being beside me when i really really need u....
sorry...i know my word which mistrust was hurt u...but i really scared that u will feel annoy to me....
Ya...i had to tell u the truth bout that me really can sleep with good and sweet when i'm in the warmest arm for me..
i'm really touch when i know that u do like this just b'coz wan me to have a good sleep at night....
but in the same time i also scared...scared i will fall in again..
sorry...i know my word which mistrust was hurt u...but i really scared that u will feel annoy to me....
Ya...i had to tell u the truth bout that me really can sleep with good and sweet when i'm in the warmest arm for me..
i'm really touch when i know that u do like this just b'coz wan me to have a good sleep at night....
but in the same time i also scared...scared i will fall in again..
BANGKEL SPM
ok...maybe u will ask for me what the hell izzit!!!!
let me explain to u,Bangkel SPM is a program which created by my school,for those SPM students(actually me also lar~)to study more hard for one week......
S-H-I-T(sorry~)
u know its was really an idiot program which really tired!!!!
1st, it got Group. what's group? Okey~the program got 5 group>1st,2nd,3rd......till the 5~
and the 1st group is for those science students which the Headmisters said "Cannot change them to the other..." D-A-M-N
and then my class and the other terpaksa change!!!!
Why?????i don't wan!!!!!I wan the chinese class which is mine!! I wan my dearest classmate!!!!
I don't wan the other!!!!
But......i can't do anything..~sad~
Then after the idiot changed,17 of my classmate changed to the 3rd groub and another 1(my dearest vice monitor) changed to the 4th group!!!! Oh My God!!!!!
only 12 of us still in our class!!!!(the 2nd is use our class room)
what a damn changed!!!!!i wan my classmate with us!!!i wan all chinese in class!!I don wan the malay boy which came from the behind class in my class,they are very very very B-I-S-I-N-G!!!!
Then i go and ask for my form teacher to change back my classmate with us.....
but....u know what the headmister said?!!!
"eh..mana boleh..sebab ini atur mengikut peratus keseluruhan...sains class tak sama sebab ada sains tulin"-CELAKA-
my class also the only class which got account mar!!!why u just care for science class?????how bout my the other classmate???they no nd study for account meh???
UNFAIR!!!!
peratus??!!! what a damn peratus????!!!the subject we take different with the other class what!!!!
Ok~i noe i can't do anything b'coz it's was the idea of the celaka headmister!!!
The 1st day i went inside my class(the group)....i found that it's the fault i came to school!!!!!!b'coz the malay is trying to bully us in our class!!!!where's my class's boys???!!!oh shit....there are all in group 3....
i need to protect my classmate which in 2nd group b'coz of me is the monitor.....
HAH~~~u guess what i had done??
haha~me go to report to our class teacher coz i know she will protect us....(she alwaz said me very manja~~hehe~~maybe lor~)then my dearest teacher go inside the class and give some "speech" to them......oh...thanks god...we'r safe....
and also thaks my dearest Pn Ngiam...muax...i love you so much...
the other problem is the time table.....
it was very "BORED"
3 M.P a day....one M.P 2 hours!!!!!!!!!
My Godness......
today 4 hours for science!!!!!damn boring!!!!!!!!!!
ok......i dissit....i wan Ponteng when Friday!!!
i don't wan stay in this idiot program anymore!!!!
I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!
let me explain to u,Bangkel SPM is a program which created by my school,for those SPM students(actually me also lar~)to study more hard for one week......
S-H-I-T(sorry~)
u know its was really an idiot program which really tired!!!!
1st, it got Group. what's group? Okey~the program got 5 group>1st,2nd,3rd......till the 5~
and the 1st group is for those science students which the Headmisters said "Cannot change them to the other..." D-A-M-N
and then my class and the other terpaksa change!!!!
Why?????i don't wan!!!!!I wan the chinese class which is mine!! I wan my dearest classmate!!!!
I don't wan the other!!!!
But......i can't do anything..~sad~
Then after the idiot changed,17 of my classmate changed to the 3rd groub and another 1(my dearest vice monitor) changed to the 4th group!!!! Oh My God!!!!!
only 12 of us still in our class!!!!(the 2nd is use our class room)
what a damn changed!!!!!i wan my classmate with us!!!i wan all chinese in class!!I don wan the malay boy which came from the behind class in my class,they are very very very B-I-S-I-N-G!!!!
Then i go and ask for my form teacher to change back my classmate with us.....
but....u know what the headmister said?!!!
"eh..mana boleh..sebab ini atur mengikut peratus keseluruhan...sains class tak sama sebab ada sains tulin"-CELAKA-
my class also the only class which got account mar!!!why u just care for science class?????how bout my the other classmate???they no nd study for account meh???
UNFAIR!!!!
peratus??!!! what a damn peratus????!!!the subject we take different with the other class what!!!!
Ok~i noe i can't do anything b'coz it's was the idea of the celaka headmister!!!
The 1st day i went inside my class(the group)....i found that it's the fault i came to school!!!!!!b'coz the malay is trying to bully us in our class!!!!where's my class's boys???!!!oh shit....there are all in group 3....
i need to protect my classmate which in 2nd group b'coz of me is the monitor.....
HAH~~~u guess what i had done??
haha~me go to report to our class teacher coz i know she will protect us....(she alwaz said me very manja~~hehe~~maybe lor~)then my dearest teacher go inside the class and give some "speech" to them......oh...thanks god...we'r safe....
and also thaks my dearest Pn Ngiam...muax...i love you so much...
the other problem is the time table.....
it was very "BORED"
3 M.P a day....one M.P 2 hours!!!!!!!!!
My Godness......
today 4 hours for science!!!!!damn boring!!!!!!!!!!
ok......i dissit....i wan Ponteng when Friday!!!
i don't wan stay in this idiot program anymore!!!!
I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!
August 15, 2006
A post for u~
我真的很感动。。。
真的，我明白你的举动是为了要我好好睡。。
打从以前我就知道，你的一个拥抱就足以让我忘掉所有忧愁。
谢谢你的拥抱，谢谢你的吻。
谢谢你不厌其烦的哄着我睡。
虽然半夜还是会翻转难眠，但无可否认，
昨晚是我这几天下来睡得最安稳的一晚。
虽然也许你只是要我好好睡，
但你让我感觉到了，
温暖。
真的，我明白你的举动是为了要我好好睡。。
打从以前我就知道，你的一个拥抱就足以让我忘掉所有忧愁。
谢谢你的拥抱，谢谢你的吻。
谢谢你不厌其烦的哄着我睡。
虽然半夜还是会翻转难眠，但无可否认，
昨晚是我这几天下来睡得最安稳的一晚。
虽然也许你只是要我好好睡，
但你让我感觉到了，
温暖。
Trail Exam
I get the time table of trail exam today...
oh....stress....
i would like to show it here.....
29/08/2006--->BM 1.....BM 2
30/08/2006--->BI 1.....BI 2
01/09/2006--->SEJARAH 1.....SEJARAH 2[my god~]
02/09/2006--->SCIENS 1...SCIENS 2 [Saturday also need E-X-A-M]
04/09/2006--->MATH 1.....MATH 2
05/09/2006--->PM.....BC 1
08/09/2006--->P.SENI VISUAL 1.....2
09/09/2006--->ACCOUNT 1.....2[Another damn Saturday]
11/09/2006--->BC 2[The last]
HUH~~~~~~faster go pass.....
oh....stress....
i would like to show it here.....
29/08/2006--->BM 1.....BM 2
30/08/2006--->BI 1.....BI 2
01/09/2006--->SEJARAH 1.....SEJARAH 2[my god~]
02/09/2006--->SCIENS 1...SCIENS 2 [Saturday also need E-X-A-M]
04/09/2006--->MATH 1.....MATH 2
05/09/2006--->PM.....BC 1
08/09/2006--->P.SENI VISUAL 1.....2
09/09/2006--->ACCOUNT 1.....2[Another damn Saturday]
11/09/2006--->BC 2[The last]
HUH~~~~~~faster go pass.....
August 14, 2006
爱在左岸，心往右转。
有时候，热闹是一种必须,快乐亦然
生活，现实，理智，时间，
纷纷剥落爱的可能
一个又一个的她常低叹：
“孤單是一個人的狂歡
狂歡是一群人的孤單...
也许每一个表情冷漠的人，
内心都有深不可测的寂寞。
只是有的人发泄，有的人隐忍。
满街的人，每个人的表情平和安然，
谁知内里已经经历多少波澜?
无法诉说的人世里，
索性就不再诉说，
无法改变的际遇里，
索性就不去奢求.
她想，世间的感情，
从来不曾完美也不曾单纯.
人和人，都只在互相寻找，
灵魂却各自孤独...
等到有一天终于明白了，
相逢有相逢的际遇，
萍水有萍水的礼数。
有的人份比缘薄，
厮守比爱难多了，
不如放生彼此。
道一声别离，
从此风霜被收藏，
澎湃被平复。
谁说，朝朝暮暮才是终点？
告别的年代，分开的理由，
终不需，诉说出口。
不要问，为什么放手，为什么妥协。
宿命像张网，到处是挣不开的丝蔓。
即使挣开有什么意义，
如果真的要颠覆整个世界
去成全一场爱恋，
得到与得不到，没有丝毫的区别.
什么是遗憾？
可能一直被藏在心里，
紧握在手心里的，
反而细细碎碎地从指间滑落了。
原来，这世间，有一种爱，
叫爱不得......
天涯咫尺，岸上水中。
你在彼岸，我在此岸。
爱在左岸，心往右转。
生活，现实，理智，时间，
纷纷剥落爱的可能
一个又一个的她常低叹：
“孤單是一個人的狂歡
狂歡是一群人的孤單...
也许每一个表情冷漠的人，
内心都有深不可测的寂寞。
只是有的人发泄，有的人隐忍。
满街的人，每个人的表情平和安然，
谁知内里已经经历多少波澜?
无法诉说的人世里，
索性就不再诉说，
无法改变的际遇里，
索性就不去奢求.
她想，世间的感情，
从来不曾完美也不曾单纯.
人和人，都只在互相寻找，
灵魂却各自孤独...
等到有一天终于明白了，
相逢有相逢的际遇，
萍水有萍水的礼数。
有的人份比缘薄，
厮守比爱难多了，
不如放生彼此。
道一声别离，
从此风霜被收藏，
澎湃被平复。
谁说，朝朝暮暮才是终点？
告别的年代，分开的理由，
终不需，诉说出口。
不要问，为什么放手，为什么妥协。
宿命像张网，到处是挣不开的丝蔓。
即使挣开有什么意义，
如果真的要颠覆整个世界
去成全一场爱恋，
得到与得不到，没有丝毫的区别.
什么是遗憾？
可能一直被藏在心里，
紧握在手心里的，
反而细细碎碎地从指间滑落了。
原来，这世间，有一种爱，
叫爱不得......
天涯咫尺，岸上水中。
你在彼岸，我在此岸。
爱在左岸，心往右转。
不懂...
昨晚突然惊醒...
因为梦里有你，所以我不敢让自己入睡，深怕会在重复那个梦。
很傻吧?
但我必须提醒自己,不能再让自己沉沦在梦里...
因为不管是梦里的甜蜜还是我们的回忆，都只会伤害到我自己。
我一直以为，没有了你我可以很坚强，我还是会好好的..
但我错了。
我在想会不会是临睡前你的那封信息影响了我？
“还真不习惯你没在身边吵我”
无可否认，在那一刻我几乎崩溃了...
为何会这样？因为高兴？还是伤心？
我真的不知道。
只知道答应过自己不再为你流泪的话，早已被我抛在脑后了..
不管我多么努力地在控制我的情绪，眼泪还是不听话的一直流。。
不管我多么不愿意想起你，脑袋还是不停在找寻你。。
不管我在现实生活中怎么避开你，梦里还是会有你。。
你曾经告诉过我
“你离不开我的，因为你会寂寞，会空虚。”
事实证明我真的很没用，真的很没用。
没有你在身边，心空空洞洞。真的很难受。
究竟是我错了，还是爱情错了？
你说这么做，是为了让我不受伤。
但我还是受伤了。
我们之间的回忆仿佛像一把把的盐巴，恨恨的洒在我的伤口上。
“我会是你一辈子的守护神”
“我会永远在你身边疼着你”
这一切，越飘越远...
曾经听过某个朋友告诉我，
爱上一个人，就像染上了毒瘾，一种习惯，
失去了爱就象少了毒品的调剂，会令人痛苦万分。
但朋友却忘了告诉我，该怎样戒毒。。
因为梦里有你，所以我不敢让自己入睡，深怕会在重复那个梦。
很傻吧?
但我必须提醒自己,不能再让自己沉沦在梦里...
因为不管是梦里的甜蜜还是我们的回忆，都只会伤害到我自己。
我一直以为，没有了你我可以很坚强，我还是会好好的..
但我错了。
我在想会不会是临睡前你的那封信息影响了我？
“还真不习惯你没在身边吵我”
无可否认，在那一刻我几乎崩溃了...
为何会这样？因为高兴？还是伤心？
我真的不知道。
只知道答应过自己不再为你流泪的话，早已被我抛在脑后了..
不管我多么努力地在控制我的情绪，眼泪还是不听话的一直流。。
不管我多么不愿意想起你，脑袋还是不停在找寻你。。
不管我在现实生活中怎么避开你，梦里还是会有你。。
你曾经告诉过我
“你离不开我的，因为你会寂寞，会空虚。”
事实证明我真的很没用，真的很没用。
没有你在身边，心空空洞洞。真的很难受。
究竟是我错了，还是爱情错了？
你说这么做，是为了让我不受伤。
但我还是受伤了。
我们之间的回忆仿佛像一把把的盐巴，恨恨的洒在我的伤口上。
“我会是你一辈子的守护神”
“我会永远在你身边疼着你”
这一切，越飘越远...
曾经听过某个朋友告诉我，
爱上一个人，就像染上了毒瘾，一种习惯，
失去了爱就象少了毒品的调剂，会令人痛苦万分。
但朋友却忘了告诉我，该怎样戒毒。。
August 07, 2006
Foolish
ok~~i know is my fault...b'coz delete my old blog...
haiz...what a damn day...
many thing which annoying me..
1st:TRAIL EXAM
28/8/2006....oh no!!!!!
its coming.....i haven't study all da subject...how????
BM
BI
BC
MATH
ACCOUNT
SCIENCE
P.MORAL
SEJARAH(the most idiot subject!!!!)
oh no~~~how how how???
how i getting to have my exam???
STRESS~
2nd:HIM
why he alwaz wanna to hurt me??
why he alwaz misunderstanding me??
why he alwaz been like tis????
why why why why why why???!!!!
I feel tired~~
and feel sad....
"may i leave?"that's wat i'm ask for u...
but u tell me"donno.."wat a damn answer??
i feel tired tired and tired!!!
just let me leave if i doean't means for u...
i'm hurt....
hurt b'coz u never stand by my side when i get bully(like when da xiao hong)...
hurt b'coz i like ur shadow and u just care when u think to......
hurt b'coz i donno who am i for u!!!!!!!!!!
haiz...what a damn day...
many thing which annoying me..
1st:TRAIL EXAM
28/8/2006....oh no!!!!!
its coming.....i haven't study all da subject...how????
BM
BI
BC
MATH
ACCOUNT
SCIENCE
P.MORAL
SEJARAH(the most idiot subject!!!!)
oh no~~~how how how???
how i getting to have my exam???
STRESS~
2nd:HIM
why he alwaz wanna to hurt me??
why he alwaz misunderstanding me??
why he alwaz been like tis????
why why why why why why???!!!!
I feel tired~~
and feel sad....
"may i leave?"that's wat i'm ask for u...
but u tell me"donno.."wat a damn answer??
i feel tired tired and tired!!!
just let me leave if i doean't means for u...
i'm hurt....
hurt b'coz u never stand by my side when i get bully(like when da xiao hong)...
hurt b'coz i like ur shadow and u just care when u think to......
hurt b'coz i donno who am i for u!!!!!!!!!!
S-H-I-T
See what i've been done~~
I deleted my old blog....damn....
how come i do that~~
STUPID lar....
Now i need started again here....sad~~
I deleted my old blog....damn....
how come i do that~~
STUPID lar....
Now i need started again here....sad~~
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